theodicy

when i see videos of people in great physical distress, jaw broken, wind pipes sliced into with a shovel– things i cannot even imagine the pain of– i am at a loss in reconciling what i see with god. my faith feels blind. my one cope is that in that moment god would remove their pain and their suffering, would not bring that pain to their conscious experience, or would only surface the amount of pain they could handle. i’m thinking of people saying how adrenaline causing them to not feel any pain, but this does not always apply, especially not in accounts of torture…